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Wave Of Light

Emotional content warning: baby loss, stillbirth.⁠

I never imagined I'd be writing this post to you, dear subscribers, it's with a tender heart and a quivering lip that I share the news that our baby died, just before his due date, while he was still in my womb. ⁠

At my 40 week check-up the midwife couldn't find a heartbeat. I was sent for a scan at the hospital and the doctors confirmed "no sign of life". After a ten hour induced labour, with Dan and my Mum by my side, I gave birth to our beautiful, firstborn, stillborn, son, James Riley Hinch, 7lb 1oz, on the 8th August 2021.⁠

We spent time with him, held him, marvelled at his fine features. I was astonished by his beauty and am grateful for the memory of the feeling of his weight in my arms.⁠

After six years of trying and two missed miscarriages, his was a much celebrated pregnancy and I wanted to thank you all for being part of this celebration, I was overwhelmed by the kind comments and messages of encouragement I received from you during my pregnancy this year.⁠

It's hard to write these words, to know what to share with you but it feels unhealthy to keep this news private, stillbirth is a human experience, one that sadly many people suffer and bringing awareness to it through sharing our loss is a small act I can take towards reducing the feelings of isolation, shame and separation that often surround it.⁠

I was shocked to learn that sadly, stillbirth isn't as uncommon as I had expected: 1 in 200 (0.5%)of babies die shortly before, during or shortly after birth. An average of 14 families a day in the UK alone will be suffering this loss. ⁠

Tonight, 15th October, marks the end of Baby Loss Awareness Week culminating in the international Wave of Light event where people are invited to light a candle at 7pm local time in memory of all the babies around the world that have sadly died.⁠

If you feel inclined, join me in taking part in the Wave of Light tonight, I'll be lighting a candle and thinking about James and all the babies who have died and their parents, families and friends who live with their loss. ⁠

1 Comment

Oct 15, 2021

I will light a candle. Your words, strength and courage are such an inspiration.

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